So basically
i want to fucking die.
i hate germany.
i hate me.
i hate my parents.
i hate everything.
i don’t belong anywhere.
Nobody likes me.
I love you so much. This. This. THIS.This is an enormous chain and I’m sorry, but I need to say this:
The laws in the Old Testament were set forth by god as the rules the Hebrews needed to follow in order to be righteous, to atone for the sin of Adam and Eve and to be able to get into Heaven. That is also why they were required to make sacrifices, because it was part of the appeasement for Original Sin.
According to Christian theology, when Jesus came from Heaven, it was for the express purpose of sacrificing himself on the cross so that our sins may be forgiven. His sacrifice was supposed to be the ultimate act that would free us from the former laws and regulations and allow us to enter Heaven by acting in his image. That is why he said “it is finished” when he died on the cross. That is why Christians don’t have to circumcise their sons (god’s covenant with Jacob), that is why they don’t have to perform animal sacrifice, or grow out their forelocks, or follow any of the other laws of Leviticus.
When you quote Leviticus as god’s law and say they are rules we must follow because they are what god or Jesus wants us to do, what you are really saying, as a Christian, is that Christ’s sacrifice on the cross was invalid. He died in vain because you believe we are still beholden to the old laws. That is what you, a self-professed good Christian, are saying to your god and his son, that their plan for your salvation wasn’t good enough for you.
So maybe actually read the thing before you start quoting it, because the implications of your actions go a lot deeper than you think.
/An atheist who understands Christian theology better than Bible-thumpers do.
^
(mic drop)
boom
whoa.
ahh snap
I’d just like to say that I don’t really claim Christianity anymore but actually the bible DOES talk about how men having sex with men and women having sex with women is considered wrong for Christians IN THE NEW TESTAMENT. It’s in Romans. And 1 Corinthians. I’m not saying I’m against gay marriage or gay sex or gay whatever the fuck else. I’m just saying that it’s wrong for people who claim Christianity according to the New Testament.
I think everything is bullshit and you should love whoever the fuck you want to love. Love has nothing to do with religion, race, sex, drugs, music preference, or any thing else but two different people who aren’t actually too different and they want to see the other’s life with them.
(Source: drunkonstevphen)
<3
To My Friends:
You are the most amazing people in the world. Without all of you, I would not be the person I am today which is awesome because I love who I am and it really is thanks to you guys. If I could bring all of you with me, I would in a heart beat. You all mean so much to me, and it kills me to leave, but I feel like this will be good for all of us. We all need to grow into who we’re supposed to be and it’ll be fun to see how awesome we all get. I love you guys with all my heart.
Love&Rockets
Sara
I think this is where I break down and cry
because I haven’t yet. and I’ve realized that I no longer have 6 months to wait for this move. I have a week and a half. That’s all I have left with my friends, with my school, with this country, with these laws, with this drinking age and curfew. The last three I don’t mind leaving.
I feel like half of my heart will be ripped from my body and left here. On the shiny airport floor. With my friends and my school and the rest of my family; All my brothers and sisters and their children and friends and lives. The other half? I get stuck with it, nursing it back to health. But who can live with only half a heart? I barely get by with a whole one. I don’t know if I can survive with only half of myself. If I had a twin sister, this would be easier. Then we would be together and I would have somebody to cling to on the plane ride and it wouldn’t seem odd to anyone since we were twins. I feel like I’m going to introvert majorly because of this. Completely disconnect from reality for a long time.
Yeah. This is where I beak down and cry.
T minus 13 days
At this point, I have a lot of conflicting feelings and thoughts. I mean, first of all, I’m really sad about leaving because I’m slowly realizing how much my friends actually care about me (which is a lot <3). A lot of my friends are hugging me more often; telling me that they love me and will miss me. Even the guys are being more affectionate than usual. There is one thing that bothers me though. My supposed best friend Ashley is not acting like this at all. I kind of think a part of her is happy I’m leaving. People always tell me that she complains about everything I do. I can’t help that I’m attractive and she doesn’t care about stuff like that because she’s christian and can’t even date guys. If she would just put some effort into it and gain some nerve (a.k.a. take a few shots of vodka) she would be fine. She always talks about losing weight and everything but never really does anything. Or doesn’t continue losing weight once she drops like five or six pounds. I think she doesn’t understand that she can gain all of that back in like…a week. So she basically loses a month or two worth of work then complains about that. Also, it bugs me that she tries to be a hipster but then denies it. Sammy, if you’re reading this, you know what I mean.
ANYWAYS. My thoughts on this whole moving thing are getting rather dark, I’m afraid to say. Like, at first, I was really happy about going because I would get to start over. But now, that’s exactly what I don’t want to do. I don’t want to have to get to know new people and let them figure out my personality and everything all over again. When I was little and I would move it was different because I wasn’t really like…a full person when I was younger. But now, I have some kind of idea who I am and what I’m about. [Who I am is being defined by the fact that I know the guy I want to legitimately want to marry when I’m older, or at least date for eternity since I’m still iffy about the whole Love thing. So I’m basically bitter and angry all the time because I have to wait for such a long amount of time before he can be mine.] I feel like maybe if I don’t fit in this time again I will know that it’s just me and not really anything else. My homie Kate said the same thing to me about her wanting to change schools since I’m leaving and our other friend is moving to California. At the time, I told her that it was never something wrong with us, it was always something wrong with them. The big them . As in society and all its slave bitches.
I feel like I’m leaving everything behind. Which is only slightly true. I feel like whenever somebody tells me that they’re going to visit me in Germany, they really won’t and I’ll be alone. Always. Like I used to be. That’s my biggest fear. Even though I’ll be with some of my family, I’ll be alone. I feel like the German girls will hate me because the German boys will have endless lists of reasons to talk to me. I don’t really mind talking to people all that much, but I feel like the language barrier will be difficult until I learn more German. Did I mention that my only sort of friend will be a ten year old boy named Lucas? And I just have to babysit him sometimes.
I’m pitiful.
For the first time
I’m glad I’m single lol
I cannot believe this.
Austin is dating a freshman.
Brandon dumpped me.
Tony kissed me.
wtf?
I can’t keep pretending anymore. Everything is just too fucking hard for me. I can’t do anything right. I’m a dissgrace to my family and they all hate me. I can’t make my boyfriend happy because I just fuck up too much. I can’t take it anymore.
nutella-weed-myfavoritethings:
I want to die.
But i love you :(
(Source: nutella-weed-aremyfavoritethings)
Monday February 20th 2012
I had a happy dream last night.
“Yay!”
it was really good.
“So what happened in your dream?”
it was just a bunch of images squished together in hyper drive but the three i remember were like driving in a convertable with you to california, sitting in front of a huge fireplace with a little kid on my lap, and going to a taylor swift concert. which is weird because i’ll never admit that i like her.
So how was your night?
“Not bad. Busy busy.”
I can tell. Busy can be good.
“It can be. It can be kind of annoying as well.”
Yeah. Haha like me :)
“Haha. Sure. I don’t think you are annoying though.”
Haha thanks :) i feel like i annoy you sometimes. Like when i send you twelve messages at a time. Usually that’s to get your attention though lol :)
“Haha. When i’m busy it obviously takes longer.”
Yuppers. That’s how i guage your busy-ness :)
“Fair enough.”
Soo what’re you doing now? :)
“Waiting in a professor’s office to check on the letters of recommendation. You?”
Blogging. Like an emo kid. And totally not listening to Taylor Swift
“Haha. You would listen to Taylor Swift and try to hide it.”
You know it ;) so did you accomplish anything awesome today?
“Talked to the professors. I’ll be 100% done with the air force application tomorrow.”
YAY!!!!!! I’m so happy for you :)
